Image from Jim Maynards pocket Astrologer
This weeks blog is a little special for me as it is the last week of my 20’s before I turn 30. As someone who studies Time and Space through the lens of Astrology, these milestone moments and birthdays send me into an existential energetic wormhole that is both extremely emotional and exhausting. I had a powerful dream last night that I am still processing. I was living in a house that resembled a much darker and worn down version of the house I am in now, and it was on the street I grew up on as a kid. I was with my mom and in the bathroom the tub was overflowing. In the water there were what seemed to be hundreds of locusts as well as carpenter bees. The locusts looked mostly dead, but the carpenter bees were alive and seemed to be huddled together and mating. In real life we had a carpenter bee in our house for a second, and it was my first time seeing one, this was a few months ago.
When I discovered the bathroom in this state, I was alone, and I was trying to call my mom, as well as my property manager to come fix it or help me figure it out and no one would get back to me or help me.
I just closed the door to the problem and left it alone in hopes that at some point someone would arrive in my life that would be here to help me clean the tub.
Eventually, after a while, I went back to the bathroom and the tub was empty, with no trace of the bugs.
In waking life, I awoke from this dream, knowing it represented some strong symbolism, but still confused on exactly what that may be. When I got up and went to the bathroom, there was a large Daddy Long Leg spider in my tub.
As I write this blog entry, I feel the meaning of the dream is already making itself known to me. I have been feeling incredibly lonely over the last few weeks and also the way I had my 30th envisioned is turning out to be not quite what I had hoped. As a Leo I often want everything to be larger than life, with my favorite people, and I am always trying to facilitate environments for that. Especially when it comes to my birthday. The reality of getting older, is letting go of this need and learning to not be disappointed when things do not work out the way you had hoped. I think the bugs symbolized a lot of my feelings in the dream, and not getting the help I felt I needed in the dream, was a symbol of how I often feel in my own life.
What I have learned in the past few years over all is that I seem to benefit from being more isolated and on my own, rather than trying to facilitate larger environments, or depending too much on others. Independance away from relationships or group dynamics is not Leo’s favorite thing to do, the experience of feeling alone is difficult on Leo’s heart, but learning the polarity in Aquarius, which leans towards being more detached about the group environment, and finding value in going it alone is a positive thing to learn for me, as my north node is in Aquarius.
With that said, and a bit of random personal insight towards me, this is a positive segway into the energy of our week because on Thursday morning, we have our Full Moon in Aquarius at 22 degrees.
This Full Moon in Aquarius is asking for us to see where we need to detach more in our relationships, or perceptions of our relationships. I think about relationships with this Full Moon, because the energy of having our Sun, Mars, Mercury, and Venus all being in Leo, is bringing out a lot of feelings around how we are processing our relationships with others at this time, and who we choose to be within them.
There is a lot of energy this week asking us to reevaluate our perceptions of reality. We are being asked to let go of emotional patterns around our hearts that may not be beneficial for us at this time. Communication will also be a challenge this week, and we may find ourselves having some difficult conversations with people closest to us.
We also may feel a large need to advocate for others, or ourselves during this time, and it is benefical for us to find healthy ways to empower ourselves. Self love, and calming the mind through peaceful meditations or yoga practices is beneficial for us during this Full Moon week.
Letting go of the ego, and making room for a new view point, or maybe seeing things from someone else's point of view, is helpful in expanding our awareness to new places.
Tarot Cards for the week:
The Star, The Tower, The Sun, The Moon, 4 of Swords, 6 of Swords, 5 of Swords, 7 of Swords, 10 of Swords, 5 of Wands, 6 of Wands, 4 of Wands, 10 of Wands, Queen of Wands, King of Wands, Knight of Wands, Knight of Swords, King of Swords.
Moon enters Aquarius 8:35 AM
With the Moon in Aquarius and moving towards the Full Moon phase, we may feel a lot of energy or pressure beginning to brew within our minds and under the surface. This energy is preparing us for a breaking point around our thoughts and perceptions so that we can gain clarity on what our next moves are for the remainder of the year. While there may be a lot of emphasis on group dynamics, or relationships within our minds, this might be a personal journey where we are asking ourselves what types of energy we wish to cultivate in our relationships moving forward. Maybe a relationship is ending, or some new terms are being set within our relationship dynamics. Communication might be difficult this week, and we benefit from finding time to cool off and have some space to ourselves away from the noise of others.
Strong Aspects During the Day PST
Moon Opposition Mercury in Leo 1:33 PM
Tension in our minds is enhanced in the afternoon and we may need to talk something out around how we are feeling in a relationship with another. We need to be mindful with how we project our feelings onto others during this time as there is room for us to come off too aggressive, or cold if we are not careful.
Moon Square Uranus RX in Taurus 9:47 PM
We may experience an unexpected change in the evening regarding plans that we had or some kind of