Image from Jim Maynards pocket Astrologer
This weeks blog is a little special for me as it is the last week of my 20’s before I turn 30. As someone who studies Time and Space through the lens of Astrology, these milestone moments and birthdays send me into an existential energetic wormhole that is both extremely emotional and exhausting. I had a powerful dream last night that I am still processing. I was living in a house that resembled a much darker and worn down version of the house I am in now, and it was on the street I grew up on as a kid. I was with my mom and in the bathroom the tub was overflowing. In the water there were what seemed to be hundreds of locusts as well as carpenter bees. The locusts looked mostly dead, but the carpenter bees were alive and seemed to be huddled together and mating. In real life we had a carpenter bee in our house for a second, and it was my first time seeing one, this was a few months ago.
When I discovered the bathroom in this state, I was alone, and I was trying to call my mom, as well as my property manager to come fix it or help me figure it out and no one would get back to me or help me.
I just closed the door to the problem and left it alone in hopes that at some point someone would arrive in my life that would be here to help me clean the tub.
Eventually, after a while, I went back to the bathroom and the tub was empty, with no trace of the bugs.
In waking life, I awoke from this dream, knowing it represented some strong symbolism, but still confused on exactly what that may be. When I got up and went to the bathroom, there was a large Daddy Long Leg spider in my tub.
As I write this blog entry, I feel the meaning of the dream is already making itself known to me. I have been feeling incredibly lonely over the last few weeks and also the way I had my 30th envisioned is turning out to be not quite what I had hoped. As a Leo I often want everything to be larger than life, with my favorite people, and I am always trying to facilitate environments for that. Especially when it comes to my birthday. The reality of getting older, is letting go of this need and learning to not be disappointed when things do not work out the way you had hoped. I think the bugs symbolized a lot of my feelings in the dream, and not getting the help I felt I needed in the dream, was a symbol of how I often feel in my own life.
What I have learned in the past few years over all is that I seem to benefit from being more isolated and on my own, rather than trying to facilitate larger environments, or depending too much on others. Independance away from relationships or group dynamics is not Leo’s favorite thing to do, the experience of feeling alone is difficult on Leo’s heart, but learning the polarity in Aquarius, which leans towards being more detached about the group environment, and finding value in going it alone is a positive thing to learn for me, as my north node is in Aquarius.
With that said, and a bit of random personal insight towards me, this is a positive segway into the energy of our week because on Thursday morning, we have our Full Moon in Aquarius at 22 degrees.
This Full Moon in Aquarius is asking for us to see where we need to detach more in our relationships, or perceptions of our relationships. I think about relationships with this Full Moon, because the energy of having our Sun, Mars, Mercury, and Venus all being in Leo, is bringing out a lot of feelings around how we are processing our relationships with others at this time, and who we choose to be within them.
There is a lot of energy this week asking us to reevaluate our perceptions of reality. We are being asked to let go of emotional patterns around our hearts that may not be beneficial for us at this time. Communication will also be a challenge this week, and we may find ourselves having some difficult conversations with people closest to us.
We also may feel a large need to advocate for others, or ourselves during this time, and it is benefical for us to find healthy ways to empower ourselves. Self love, and calming the mind through peaceful meditations or yoga practices is beneficial for us during this Full Moon week.
Letting go of the ego, and making room for a new view point, or maybe seeing things from someone else's point of view, is helpful in expanding our awareness to new places.
Tarot Cards for the week:
The Star, The Tower, The Sun, The Moon, 4 of Swords, 6 of Swords, 5 of Swords, 7 of Swords, 10 of Swords, 5 of Wands, 6 of Wands, 4 of Wands, 10 of Wands, Queen of Wands, King of Wands, Knight of Wands, Knight of Swords, King of Swords.
Moon enters Aquarius 8:35 AM
With the Moon in Aquarius and moving towards the Full Moon phase, we may feel a lot of energy or pressure beginning to brew within our minds and under the surface. This energy is preparing us for a breaking point around our thoughts and perceptions so that we can gain clarity on what our next moves are for the remainder of the year. While there may be a lot of emphasis on group dynamics, or relationships within our minds, this might be a personal journey where we are asking ourselves what types of energy we wish to cultivate in our relationships moving forward. Maybe a relationship is ending, or some new terms are being set within our relationship dynamics. Communication might be difficult this week, and we benefit from finding time to cool off and have some space to ourselves away from the noise of others.
Strong Aspects During the Day PST
Moon Opposition Mercury in Leo 1:33 PM
Tension in our minds is enhanced in the afternoon and we may need to talk something out around how we are feeling in a relationship with another. We need to be mindful with how we project our feelings onto others during this time as there is room for us to come off too aggressive, or cold if we are not careful.
Moon Square Uranus RX in Taurus 9:47 PM
We may experience an unexpected change in the evening regarding plans that we had or some kind of viewpoint we have had that is no longer in line with reality. We need to embrace change and learn to let any stubborn energy we are holding onto, dissipate.
Sun in Leo Conjunct Venus in Leo 11:07 PM
Our need for love, romance, and connection is enhanced in the next couple days with the Sun and Venus meeting up in Leo. Leo craves validation and attention, and with the planet of love meeting up with the planet of self, we may feel like we are craving all of the adventure and play time our heart could desire. Find a way over the next couple days to love and lavish yourself in powerful and lighthearted ways. If you are unable to spend this time with friends or lovers, be your own friend and take yourself out on a romantic date.
Moon in Aquarius
We feel the Full Moon energy culminating at a heightened state and things may feel a little crazy out in the world. Full Moon’s can ignite a lot for people, and sometimes our darkest or ugliest parts of ourselves are getting a big light cast on them and brought to the surface. If we are having to face parts of ourselves, or parts of others that are not so pretty, this is a test on how we can find gratitude for the parts of life that are worth embracing everyday, no matter how different our perceptions or values may be from another.
Strong Aspects During the Day PST
Moon Sextile Jupiter in Sagittarius 1:37 PM
Our need for expansion is enhanced and we benefit from setting intentions around learning new things and being open to growth in new and interesting ways. We may need to change up our routine, get out of town, or take a workshop or class that moves our energy into a new place.
Full Moon in Aquarius 5:29 AM
Moon Void of Course 6:02 PM
Moon enters Pisces 8:49 PM
The Full Moon in Aquarius hits in the early morning hours and invites the winds of change to blow in our direction. We are being asked to let go of beliefs or perceptions of reality that are not in line with our hearts. We may need to step into a new role over the next month, one that is more in line with our values. We may also feel like rules or class systems we felt we identified with in the past, are no longer working for us, and we are ready to break the rules and old perceptions of what was blocking us so that we can move to higher ground.
Strong Aspects During the Day PDT
Moon Opposition Venus in Leo 6:16 AM
Tension between our mind and hearts is enhanced in the morning hours. We could feel a lot of inspiration and motivated to establish new structures around our relationships.
Moon Opposition Mars in Leo 6:02 PM
We could feel like we need to move forward on something that we have been thinking about for sometime. We are at a breaking point this week and it is time to decide what needs to go in our lives so that we can continue to push forward on the future we seek for ourselves. We could also feel a lot of sexual energy during this time.
Moon in Pisces
We begin to cool off a bit from our Full Moon energy we had during the week and we may crave the need for self care and escape from reality. We benefit from finding ways to nurture our hearts. This is a positive weekend for not taking things too seriously and making space to connect with your spiritual self in a healthy way through art, music, film, poetry, or meditation.
Our psychic connection to others is enhanced during this time.
Strong Aspects During the Day PDT
Mercury in Leo Square Uranus RX in Taurus 10:06 AM
Communication problems are enhanced over the next couple days and we could experience some sudden disruptions to plans that we were not expecting. This is a challenging time for working things out with another, or trying to move forward on a project. A lot is changing within and around us and if we are trying to hold onto anything from our past, this transit will make it a challenging process. We need to be mindful with how we communicate and we might be asked to let go of some old perceptions around how we have seen things in the past. Disruptions to travel plans or business plans could also be a theme over the next few days.
Moon Sextile Uranus RX in Taurus 10:11 AM
Our ability to tune into the changes that need to be made in the physical is enhanced and we may have some prophetic insights given to us during this time.
Moon in Pisces
Moon Void of Course 3:34 PM
We could feel an enhanced amount of emotional energy during the day and we benefit from moving slow and focusing on self care. With the Moon Void of Course for the last half of the day, this is not a day for making any large or life altering decisions, but we should find a way to escape the mundane tasks and feed our hearts in uplifting ways.
Strong Aspects During the Day PDT
Moon Conjunct Neptune RX in Pisces 9:09 AM
Spiritual connection is important to us in the morning hours and we enjoy starting our day listening to music that feeds our hearts and takes us to other planes of reality. We also benefit from some morning meditation and communication with our spirit guides.
Moon Sextile Pluto RX in Capricorn 3:34 PM
This is a harmonious energy for making peace with the transformation process we are undergoing. The things that came up during the Full Moon may have been hard, and we may have been surprised to find we are more stuck in our ways than we thought. This energy allows for us to make more peace with letting go and transitioning into allowing for that new self to be born.
Mars enters Virgo 10:19 PM
With Mars in Virgo over the next month, our productivity level will go up and we could see ourselves beginning to make waves on the plans that have been brewing. This will be a productive time and we benefit from getting plans in order around our finances, work life, and health routine.
Moon enters Aries 9:33 AM
With the Moon in Aries we could feel more impulsive or hot headed than we normally do. We need to be mindful not to be too aggressive with others, but we benefit from doing something active with our day and moving heat through the body. We may enjoy spending time at the gym, outside, or going for a run/walk at some point during the day.